The Great Epilogue
January 16, 2007, the day for my art met its death. So much i worked for it, so much i spent time on it, took me months to drew it but its dead, burnt to death now after i completed just around 2 months ago. It was close to 2.00am, when i received this a call, it was her. Her first words, weren't a suprise for me, finally he confessed the he liked her. But then, the next one was worst, i never expected it. She wants a break up from me. I guess it was just like every for every other men, felt like struck by a lighting bolt. Speechless i was yet i still managed to speak few words. Why ? Its all because she likes him, more than she does for me. Why ? Because he looks much better than i do. I cried so much, very very much. Couldn't move myself, felt like i'm dead already. I can never hate him, not his fault, not at all. He is a guy and basically he got attracted to her as because all he knows is that she is single, not in any relationship. So its something normal for him to do, nothing wrong. Well, she told me that she refused him, she said no it seems. Does that make any difference ? Hell no ! You still left me, thats what matters. It doesn't make any difference whatever she told him because it doesn't matter to me at all. All i know is that you left me because of another guy and thats the worst thing can ever happen to any guy. Being dumped because of someone better, i feel like a trash now. You threw me away just like that, like a piece of shit, like some trash. Do you know how much it hurts ? You asked me not to wait for you to come back and i think i know why. Its because, you never wanna come back to me. Most probably, this gonna remain forever. In the end you can still say that you love me. Don't you feel stupid ? It hurts a lot more when you keep saying that you really really love me because i know its all bullshit ! Why you doing this to me ? What evil i've done to you for me to suffer this pain and humilation. Have you ever imagined how it feels if it happens to you ? Can you imagine how it feels if a guy dumped you because there is another much better looking girl likes him. I dont think you do. He smokes, drinks and doing diploma. Its all against your intrest yet you still likes him very much. Why ? He looks fucking good, thats why. Looks does matter for you. Actually its is a very good lesson you thought me. Thank you very much, i'll never forget it, never ever. You know something, if only i'm someone very very good looking guy, i don't think you'd have dumped me. It doesn't matter even if its a guy you had a crush since the day you were born, you wouldn't have left me for him if i'm very fucking much better looking guy. Isn't it ? | |
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